Well i kinda feel restless in a sudden..worried abt the future,studies and many more..what jo said was true,we do need someone up there to guide us and bless us..i was never a firm believer of god.Since i was young till now..it still does not open my eyes out to someone up there,or not convince by anyone about it..i have encountered alot of this issues,religions and all..i have encountered christians who judges people,being superior and "oh-so-holy"..it makes me feel these people are pathetic..at times people come to me and discuss about religion,u know buddhism and christianity...both do not convince me at times because both parties at times criticizes each others beliefs..and being very stereotypical towards each other..well what i learn from myself and from experince is be yourself..and do not always follow what the community says,comment or judge..when i was young i was taken care at a childcare center or a kindergarden(which is a protestant school or whatever it is :S) they drew a picture of gautama buddha and told all the students or kids "is just a statue of evil that u pray too" i felt pretty offended and i m a buddhist :S well or a free thinker for now :S until now i m still not convince to any of it..any of this bullcrap to me..is because of the people and at times doesnt make me believe in it..well what jo said christianity is a relationship with god,not a religion...i really hope that it is a just a relationship and no obligation like friends..because i want god to be a friend not someone to bow to,not someone to oblige to worship him or being a fanatic over it..i want god to be like my father and a friend who guides,listens and doesnt judge..show me unconditional love and love me for who i am as well...i m confuse towards these kinda stuff..and i need guidelines towards it..and if someone is really up there i hope u could make me feel peace and confident..jo i hope u are reading this..i love you