happy and restless..

Well as you all can see what i wrote for my title,the balance between happy or sad.Or the fare share of happiness and sadness..well i m not gonna tell much about it..because when it comes to thinking about it,my chest feels heavy and a very unsatisfying feeling that you wanna release it out before it spreads through your mind and heart..actually its already been "spreaded" to both parts of it..we humans have loads of feelings,different feelings and reactions as well..well whatever we do,at times we lose ourselves because of those feelings and if we're fortunate or lucky enough to be patient and not letting it take control,then you'll be "perfect".As i m writing or blogging in my room right now,i feel restless when it comes to stuff that you can't really help..although i can help out in a way,but she was too afraid of letting me giving a helping hand..i m involved in the problem already and i would really want to help out as an "extra hand" because is never wrong to do something which is "unexpected"and unpredicted as well..it came naturally to both of us and i never think is wrong to have those feelings for each other..because whenever u found something new,there is always a lesson to it..and the moral to it..whatever we have done we will learn something new to be better in future..well its at times heartbreaking,however i would love and hope to able to control myself..and to help out because when we have those feelings,we cant bare to see each other fall or being stepped down..it'll be very heartbreaking and the feeling of having heavy chest which affects the mind and heart will destroy something you've created and yourself..i love her alot and very very much..this feeling i have to admit is still something new to me..however i have learned alot about it..at times i fall with hatred and resentment..but i'll always rise again and stand on my grounds..is almost 1am in the morning and tomorrow i have to catch a bus back to penang..i miss home alot and the memories that i had..that is all for now..till then..

7.00 am in the morning

It has been the second day,that i woke up at 6.30 in the morning,although my class in tuesday starts at 10 in the morning.Woke up in the morning felt the sensation of "blurness" however i decided and had to do my chores early in the morning just to wake me up from sleeping late again(sorry jo that i was late for class :P) The first thing in the morning i did was hearing the "annoying" alarm clock of mine just to get my lazy butt up..and gave a morning call to jo to annoy her :P( Kacau!!!).After washing up myself,i had to do my laundry and was surprised that my uncle woke up early as well(not that surprise actually,the old bird is always an early bird :P) Waking up early in the morning is a feeling of something fresh,your mind starts to function better,you are more alert than during the midnight and innovative things starts to wonder around your mind and creativity as well.Well personally i m not a fan of an early morning,i use to wake up late in the morning around 12 or may be 10 or 9.Since i stopped secondary school,i started to became lazier and hell it was a bad monthly holidays for me,till i started college then because of responsibilities that i m oblige to face it.I admit,i am always lazy in terms of everything,that is how i am at times however,i m willing to and had to change for the better good of myself,for everybody and even for my love ones just to prove to them i can do something out of nothing( sorry jo if i never really been a perfect guy for u,but i m willing to change and want u to see it as well) well is early in the morning right now and decided to post a blog,so whenever i read it,it will always reminds me of my past life and how much i change as well...well enough say for today,that is all i can say for now.Till next time..

first time..

Well it's my first time blogging,i can say that i m not a professional when it comes to expressing myself in words..or in writing..i m starting a blog,just to get me through the day,trying to express my self and letting a few friends know about my daily life,which some of them wants me to write and keep in touch as well(special *someones* :D) I've moved to kl and have been here for a month to further my studies in music..kl is a place where i can realign myself in a different situation and in a different place itself.I m from a small island called penang and had moved in to a big city which alienated me..seriously some people in kl are just really different from penang,although we're neighbours(far apart neighbors :P) but still people here are different..well kl has it's disadvantages and advantages as well..all places do actually..however i m a satisfied with my life in somewhere different,so i could explore and get exposures..well the place might alienate me but what ever happens,i just got to be ready and prepared(like what u always tell me jo..hehe and mom and dad,love u all alot) :D) Life in college is fun,my course mates are humble people and getting along is pretty easy :D and its a good thing to get networks as well if u're making a big step to the music industry..everything needs networks as well..without networks we would never rise and be successful...college is something new to me and its totally different from secondary school...and more stressed towards it :( but still it's to be enjoyed as well :D without enjoyment of what u are doing,we will never be happy in our young adulthoods..that is all i can say for now(lack of ideas to write :S) will update more if i have inspiration and fresh ideas :D