happy and restless..

Well as you all can see what i wrote for my title,the balance between happy or sad.Or the fare share of happiness and sadness..well i m not gonna tell much about it..because when it comes to thinking about it,my chest feels heavy and a very unsatisfying feeling that you wanna release it out before it spreads through your mind and heart..actually its already been "spreaded" to both parts of it..we humans have loads of feelings,different feelings and reactions as well..well whatever we do,at times we lose ourselves because of those feelings and if we're fortunate or lucky enough to be patient and not letting it take control,then you'll be "perfect".As i m writing or blogging in my room right now,i feel restless when it comes to stuff that you can't really help..although i can help out in a way,but she was too afraid of letting me giving a helping hand..i m involved in the problem already and i would really want to help out as an "extra hand" because is never wrong to do something which is "unexpected"and unpredicted as well..it came naturally to both of us and i never think is wrong to have those feelings for each other..because whenever u found something new,there is always a lesson to it..and the moral to it..whatever we have done we will learn something new to be better in future..well its at times heartbreaking,however i would love and hope to able to control myself..and to help out because when we have those feelings,we cant bare to see each other fall or being stepped down..it'll be very heartbreaking and the feeling of having heavy chest which affects the mind and heart will destroy something you've created and yourself..i love her alot and very very much..this feeling i have to admit is still something new to me..however i have learned alot about it..at times i fall with hatred and resentment..but i'll always rise again and stand on my grounds..is almost 1am in the morning and tomorrow i have to catch a bus back to penang..i miss home alot and the memories that i had..that is all for now..till then..